When you have a woman who cares about you with all her heart and is so sure about the way she feels about you, but you give her reasons to doubt, a reason to disbelieve, reasons to misjudge and misunderstand situations. You lose her just a little bit at a time until she’s gone completely.
When all her attention is reserved for you yet, she feels at the mercy of a miracle to gain some attention from you. Always seeking an opportunity to catch the glance of your eye or a beat of your heart to be dedicated to just her but it never happens. You continue to be the air she breathes and the rhythm of her every single heartbeat. While you take her for granted, like that side dish that you didn’t even order.
See, depriving her of the attention and love and devotion that she rightfully deserves and constantly craves from you will only push her further and further away. For these games that you play might have worked on some high school girl in winning her over but this girl right here, you already have her, and her heart is already etched with your name on it. Your little tactics that you are trying to pull off will only erase you from where she has so prestigiously placed you.
She looks at you with pure love, you see her only with lust. Don’t you see, she will live up to the better that she deserves. When someone else fills the spaces that you have been leaving empty in her life for so long, she will be gone.
When she is tired of being the only one to put in an effort, she will leave you.
When you have pushed her so far away that she can’t even see a single reason to hold on, that is when all the little reasons of leaving you will come together, and you will finally lose her.
Once you have crossed every last limit of ignorance and tested the last bit of her patience that is when she will let go for good. And once you have finally lost the one girl you wanted to stay, you will be the one who will be left empty and alone. For it is only when she is gone; you will realize what you have lost.